Memories of a life time

Finished work unleashes a distinguished jubilation. We tend to loosen up and walk through the events we actually conquered. But what if the events have become a part of our lives and all the triumphs and tribulations have created some deep holes that could not be filled up even with time’s gracious healing potion. In such a situation, instead of celebrating our achievements we sit down to wonder if ever in life are we going to get such beautiful moments again. This situation isn’t rare. In fact, everyone faces it at least once in life. And I am facing it now.

Few days back, I completed my Btech at VSSUT(Formerly UCE) Burla. I saw some of my friends leaving hostel and some waved as I left, but I did not realize dat anything new was happening. Every time since four years in every summer vacation, I parted from my friends only to join them back after two months. But now I do realize that for some of my friends, the final wave will be the very last gesture that took place between me and them for this incarnation. Hope this never happens.

“Happy days are now over, craving the way for the most purposeful days”. I would describe these four years as the most purposeful days of my life. It has taught me how to do things in my own way. There also have been many mixed emotions. Some desires got fulfilled, some aspirations answered, and some reward that showered upon me, some promising relationships and friends for a lifetime . On the other hand, some dreams were cut short, some commitments ended, some hopes have turned into despair. Everything now has become a part of ‘memories’ which I will cherish for the rest of my life.

Hope I meet each one of my friends at some point of time and relive all the moments again and again and again…..

Its negativity all around

This is my third attempt at writing a blog. Never really had much to write about and everytime called it a day just after thinking of a good headline for my blog. But this time I hv come a little ahead. I know that the first sentence at the top of this page is a bit pessimistic but when things are not so cool we are not left with too many options.

Never really thought that I would be seriously writing a blog bcoz of my “more important things” attitude but this time I feel quite determined to take up dis one coz its negativity all around. Only to inform you that I m preparing for CAT, never take it seriously coz I m also not able to take it seriously myself. Its been quite a long journey for me since the day I started thinking the “IIM way”. The mock test scores always fell below expectation and I had a new battle to fight with myself. The problem is that battle is still on and I m still confused.

“4 yrs of engineering life, loads of fun, tendency to dive into anything except academics” is how I describe my engg life. When things go your way you seldom stop and think abt it. U just let it keep going. But a feeling of not having done enough keeps hovering around. And suddenly the story of sour grapes come into our mind and we say “in engg life we learn how to live life and not learn academics”. Shit. Engineers always do find a way to contradict with what our conscience has to say.

Striking the positive chord, I m trying to get into the grove of whatever I m thinking I should have done. Its only a matter of time till I m able to accomplish some of them.

Well, words speak better than actions…:-D